how to be natural n simple??

oh the toughest thing i ve found out in my life is to be simple n natural...i dont know whether it is my weakness or something else i always do not behave as i wish myself to be..this unexpected behaviour forces to patch up in the last minute as per situation..

how should i change myself..

the only thing i like in me is that i never gave up..
as it goes that aquarians set themselves very high goals, i too got my own goals(very high indeed)..
but the effort they required is beyond my capability(so i think)..
that implies that i cant reach my goals!!!!
but..but..somewhere in me there is a thought that if ...if...if..i change myself in this way or that way..i can...indeed i can reach my goals..infact nothing will be beyond my reach then..
as i read in the great book"veyipadagalu",the only difference between thought and action of different people is their destiny...
everone wants to be a bill gates or sachin...but a few work for it..
i too worked...but it proved insufficient..
sometimes i thought i am destined to fail all my life...
but i never gave up trying..to my wonder my efforts stopped at the same point of the journey towards my goal..
now i ve decided time has come to go beyond that point..
i pray to "my mother" to give me that strength...

so why i want to blog now????

i ve been orkuttin for some days now...
gtalkin..
"chit chat"ting...
suddenly i m here posting for my blog...
why??
the quest goes on for the perfection..
some get it easily
some wont..
its not easy for me..
i tried for it..tried..tried...tried...
failure...failure...faailure...
then today i see one of my orkut fren's blog and observed the intensity in it...
thought why not my blog..
so here i am..